I have had a similar conversation with so many children over the years. Often the conversations were within my own family. There are far too many broken families struggling to get to the next day. The children involved are unable to see the why. No explanation makes it acceptable or understandable. Fathers leave.
But leaving is not the full story of abandonment. Years and years of doubt turned to guilt, anger, frustration and loneliness. No phone call. No letter. No birthday gift. Silence.
It may take a long time for a ‘step-father’ to become part of this new family, but so precious!
My Father (C) MSK 7-4-2018
Birthdays have come and gone
Life’s challenges at every turn.
I wanted you to be there so much
Just to see if I lost or if I won.
Mother made excuses
I kept expecting you to show.
Abandoning us was as cruel
As all the other abuses.
You haven’t come around
Since I was four.
I will always be your son
But you’re not my father any more.
But it’s alright, I survived
I have a great family.
Mother met a really good man
Got much better after he arrived.
He takes care of me as his own
Promises he’ll always be there.
Teaching me things you never could
And laughing at how much I’ve grown.
You are still my dad
And I’m your daughter.
But I know now
You were never my father.
You haven’t come around
Since I was four.
I will always be your son
But you’re not my father any more.

To me, this is a rather sad song. I have seen many relationships that should last forever crumble in front of me. People that were dedicated and adored each other turned to bitter enemies. Mutual friends and family stuck with unpleasant decisions. Broken hearts and lives. Sometimes there are innocent and guilty, but not as often as you would think. The rooms themselves seem to whisper a sad tale. Even the pictures are affected by the loneliness and help tell the tragic but all too familiar tale. Using common excuses as cliche’s the chorus sums it up fairly well while the verses bounce from past to present.
